When I was 15 I wanted to join a band to get women! I could not sing so I started playing guitar because they seemed to do better then drummers and bass players. 40 years later I'm still looking!
I wonder if it is me or my guitar playing?
Simple, I love the guitar. It's just a hobby that I wish I would of taken a lot more serious when I was younger.
No, it's the same for me (also what ChiBear was saying).
If I don't do it I lose purpose and perspective on life very quickly, then it's Robin Williams time, which is not healthy.
I have done the same thing since 1981 writing stuff first with guitar, then vocals a bit, then Synthesizers, then effects pedals, then computers creating my own Creative AWE32 soundfonts, then direct to disc recording. Then I gave up for years and became allergic to music in general for several years, then I discovered virtual instruments in a serious way during the last 3 years. Next stop, I become a God towering across the universe with my gigantic sounds whilst other people are listening to bands
. If I choose to listen to other people's stuff these days it's because they ask me to, or else, I'll just get on with my own thing. Otherwise I'd choose to listen to something like a thing ChiBear had on SoundCloud (about 30 minutes long), that was class. Either that or avante garde sound stuff , old film and TV music from the 60s or 70s, or my Facebook friend Pascal Vaucel, who is a brilliant Jazz guitarist (not a famous one). But he is a rare thing, a guitarist whose playing I respect more than my own. (That's about it really - write it down and stick it all on my tombstone, which I probably won't have 'cause I'll probably get cremated, though obviously I won't know 'cause I'll be dead).